Coping with loss/ Memorial
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depression
by vishalghatul- 1 reply
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the sudden loss of a loved one can trigger a variety of psychiatric disorders in people with no history of mental illness , according to researchers at columbia university's mailman school of public health and colleagues at columbia's school of social work and harvard medical school .
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Cannot believe I've lost my husband
by Sukicat- 3 replies
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We had been together for just over 40 years - married for 35 and I was 17 when we met. He was told a lesion found on his pancreas following a CT scan on Dec1st 2020 was probably cancerous but biopsies needed to confirm. Delays in getting a confirmed diagnosis from the biopsies, developing jaundice and stent insertion meant chemo was not started until end of Feb and he passed away on 12th April aged 62yrs. I don't know if I'm in shock, denial disbelief but it feels unreal I felt I was attending someone else's funeral. I feel so angry our future has been taken away we had so many plans in retirement. He was fit and well before diagnosis and thought his minimal symptoms …
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Losing my Mum and my Grandad 💜
by Littlebird- 1 follower
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I have had many unfortunate losses of family members to cancer. My Nan and Grandad when I was little. My other Nan when I was a teen. Other distantly related but dear to heart members too. But losing my Mum 3 years ago was the worst. And it’s still the worst pain I’ve experienced, and it continues. Those memories, being in her home, seeing things she would have liked. She was having trouble with kidney stones just as I was moving out of our family home around 6 years ago. After many tests and back and forth with doctors it all seemed to be muddled up somehow and no answers were given. During this time, she was eating less, she was showing how her jeans didn’t …
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Dealing with loss at this time
by deb68- 1 reply
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I have been reflecting on the triggers I feel during lockdown and wondered how other people are coping? I lost my beautiful daughter Gemma to pancreatic cancer 10 years ago at 27 years old. I have found these strange times extraordinarily difficult – even though life is always difficult and different without her. The constant sadness of families affected by the virus and the endless hospital scenes have brought back some very traumatic memories of when Gemma was ill and I think it’s easy for those of us who have lost someone to pancreatic cancer to feel even more isolated and alone as the whole world struggles to come to terms with Covid-19. Those feelings of loss an…
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Dads 1year anniversary of his death
by R19902009- 1 reply
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My dad passed away this time last year I am going to the hospice to light a candle and write in the remembrance book and be where we saw him for the last time I feel it was only a few months ago we last him and feel I have seen him and my girls speak of him everyday and say they see him there 3 and 2 so it comforts me knowing he’s around us still x
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Writing this to help me cope
by Corinne- 13 replies
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I lost my husband to this very aggressive cancer seven weeks ago so I am that raw emotion stage where tear inducing memories are everywhere and I am reminded of him all day long leading to a very deep sadness. We had been together 45 years, married for 42, and he died just too young at 66 years old, only 4 weeks after diagnosis. He had been suffering from back pain for some months but as he had broken some bones in his foot and had to wear a cast, his consultant thought that the two were related and once the cast came off the pain would subside. Unfortunately two days after the cast was removed my husband became seriously ill, unable to sleep or eat, his blood tests …
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Feeling depressed.
by rufusthedog- 1 reply
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Hi everybody, My mother passed away to cancer one month ago. I am 30 years old, engaged, and my mother was my best friend. My mood lately is all over the place. I know that's normal and that it's okay. One second I'm happy and positive, the next i'm depressed, and on and on. I'm a generally happy and positive person, like my mom was. I'm still pretty happy and managing to hang in there, but with a huge gaping hole in my heart and a constant cloud of depression that follows me wherever I go. I know this is normal, i'm not looking for anybody to tell me that. I'm depressed, and it sucks. I'm 30 years old, i'm about to start doing IVF with my boyfriend (so we don…
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Dad passing away
by R19902009- 4 replies
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My dad sadly passed away on 16 March 2019, 9.20 am after battling so hard since June 2015 in St. Christopher’s hospice. They were absolutely brilliant and cared so well. He was there for 5 days and did 2 nights in hospital before going to hospice. I cared for him right up until then. It’s been almost 8 weeks and still waiting for him to call me or send a text. My almost 3 year old wants to go and visit granddad at the special hotel as she called the hospice, bless her. My 9 year old is still crying most nights - he’s more upset as he was off to see marvel with him but sadly didn’t get the chance. I don't know why I’m writing this, but I felt people would under…
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Jeff lost his battle
by suzyma61- 3 replies
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Hi, Only had the courage now to post that my husband Jeff lost his battle on the 10th of October 2018. He spent most of last year in hospital. It took 9 weeks for the doctors to make a definite diagnosis. There didn't seem to be any sense of urgency and we both went to hell and back. I know I have to move on with life but finding it incredibly difficult at the moment. Thanking you all for your support xx
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Moving on . . . .
by Justamo- 7 replies
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Moving on. Physically, yes, but emotionally, no. Peter and I had actually looked, mildly, for a smaller house before he was diagnosed with PC. We had seen a couple of bungalows, but either they weren’t in the right area, or else were much too expensive, or were snapped up before we had a chance to view, so we hadn’t done very much about it. And then, of course, we landed on Planet PC and all other matters paled into insignificance. Despite having lived in this house for almost 40 years, I’ve never really been crazy about it. It was a convenient purchase when we were looking for somewhere suitable for my father, Peter and me, and my stepson, and suited us well e…
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She's gone 1 2
by InfoForMum- 34 replies
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Hello lovely folk, In true style I'm probably not going to be brief here and I'm unlikely to pull punches about what happened, so if feeling fragile, perhaps leave for another day. This is the very last chapter of our story. The story I've written with no respect for brevity elsewhere here. You can find the second chapter of our story via the link below and that links to the early days when Mum was first diagnosed. http://forum.pancreaticcancer.org.uk/viewtopic.php?f=28&t=1168 Those who've been kind enough to follow my Mum's journey have probably noted my long absence and guessed what's been going on. After a 2 week hospital stay to put right a bout of se…
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Carrying On 1 2 3 4
by Guest Marmalade- 77 replies
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Hello all, It seemed to me that "Our Journey Without Chemo" had run it's course and that life after Louis deserved a thread of it's own. Louis funeral was all we and he had hoped for. Good people, good music, wonderful flowers, so many speaking so well of him and the most beautiful service. I cried when they played his beautiful music, I cried to hear the readings and I cried when he was carried out of the church and when he went through the curtains at the crematoria. They were not great howling tears but constant streams of salty water which would not stop. Despite all these tears I have been calm. Not happy nor distraught but calm and every day I wait fo…
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Worried about my son...
by Proud Wife- 16 replies
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My son is 21. We lost his dad (my husband) 10 months ago. They were incredibly close and idolised each other. He has coped so very well....up to now and the one person who I want to turn to for advice is of course no longer here. My son was able to carry his dad's coffin into the crematorium. He was able to stand up and deliver an amazing tribute to his dad without so much as a wobble. He's spent the past 10 months looking out for me and helping me stay strong (ish). Not only has he lost his dad but has also moved home with me and started a new job after being made redundant at the end of last year. So basically, everything that was familiar and comforting to hi…
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Magical mum
by sophva- 3 replies
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Hi Everyone, After a 4 month battle with Pancreatic cancer, we lost our mum this week. She was diagnosed on 29th December after complaining of bloating/feeling full for about a month (that we're aware of, she often kept these things to herself) and following about 10 days of testing we were told she had stage 4 Pancreatic cancer which had spread to her peritoneum. She went through one round of chemo and then had a bowl bypass (we still wonder if this was necessary) and the surgeon said she was riddled with cancer. They also said she wasn't responding to chemo, so they wanted to just get her comfortable as mum was in severe pain right from the beginning until the end. …
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First Xmas (& advice needed on mediums)
by natters- 5 replies
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Hi, havent been on in a while. Hope everyone is okay. This will be the first xmas without my lovely daddy. Feels like a lifetime I havent seen him and yet,this time last year, he was here with us xmas shopping (in between chemos). I miss him so much. I have never really been in to mediums but have been thinking about seeing one to try to make contact with him, as it may provide some comfort. Views on this would be very welcome.... xx
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Forum Threads II
by Dandygal76- 18 replies
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Hi PCUK and nurse Diane I note that there was no right of reply to the message stating that the 'non cancer chat' thread had been removed and so I created my own thread to allow such reply. I cannot recall now where PW posted but I hope it was in the 'coping with loss' section I have posted on because it is still early days for her loss and so I considered it a part of what she needed right now. Perhaps it could have been moved there if not? I was wondering... do you still keep a copy of the thread or has it been deleted for all time? I would really appreciate a copy sent to me if that would be in accordance with your protocols. I have been in a place several ti…
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Support Groups
by natters- 2 replies
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Hi, its been 7 months since my wonderful daddy passed away and im finding it hard. We all really miss him. Does anyone know any good support groups or places to go and heal oneself in essex. Im not religous but was told about a sanctuary near where i live, unfortunately the lady has now sold up. My 3 y/o daughter has been on chemo for the last 2 years also & she finishes treatment in Feb 2017. I think everything has taken its toll on me & i feel exhausted. Any tips or advice on how to feel positive & motivated again would be great. Im also dreading xmas as it will be the first one without dad & he loved xmas! N x
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Miss my Dad so much :(
by natters- 15 replies
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Hi, I wanted to post here as I know everyone here will probably be feeling the same... my wonderful 55 y/o dad collapsed, out of the blue, on 4th September 2015. He had been fine prior to this. He was taken to hospital by ambulance and initial thoughts were he has kidney stones or something wrong with his gallbladder. After 2 days of various tests, on 6th Sept (my wedding anniversary) he was diagnosed with terminal stage 4 pancreatic cancer that had spread to his liver. To say we were shocked would be an understatement. We were pretty much left to our own devices after that. A month later, after he had been complaining of backpain, which the hospital had put down to the …
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Poems
by Proud Wife- 14 replies
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Please add to this if you can, I personally take a lot of comfort from reading poems such as these and if poetry can help anyone else..... "I had my own notion of grief. I thought it was the sad time That followed the death of someone you love. And you had to push through it To get to the other side. But I'm learning there is no other side. There is no pushing through. But rather, There is absorption. Adjustment. Acceptance. And grief is not something you complete, But rather, you endure. Grief is not a task to finish And move on, But an element of yourself- An alteration of your being. A new way of seeing. A new definition of self." …
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Unable to cope
by Guest Fifi- 18 replies
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My wonderful Dad passed away on the 21st April this year. I am unable to be normal. I struggle to like people, or even pretend. I just want my Dad. My mind is set on constant repeat of my Dad's last week. From the Oncologist saying treatment was no more, the look on my Dad's face, watching him being helped to a room. Watching the stroke. Realising he had lost movement, and speech. Hearing the secretions start. Knowing I could lose him any second. Never leaving his side. Seeing him go unconscious. Seeing him take his last breath. Organising his funeral, emptying his house, sorting out his belongings. Then of course there was all the heartache be…
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How have other people coped
by Aimee- 10 replies
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So I thought maybe if I wrote on here and had some sort of response it may help me. 3 weeks ago my grandma was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, long story short there was nothing they could do to help. She was too old and too weak to have any sort of treatment. After caring for her within in her own home for the last 2 weeks she has sadly passed away. I've always been really close with my grandma & with her only living doors away from me I've seen her everyday of my life. She has always been my only grandma in my life & I was just wondering how other people have coped with such loss? Some days I feel ok and manage to take my mind off things but then ot…
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Finding it so hard to recall better times 1 2 3 4
by Linda G- 93 replies
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Hello everyone, my lovely husband Stewart died from PC five weeks ago today. He had been ill for eight months and it was horrendous. I am devastated. I am finding it so hard to remember the good 16 years we had together before he became ill. My mind just goes over and over the horrible times. I was trying to recall the feel of his face under my fingertips today and all I could remember was how hard and solid his face felt when he went to sleep for the 12 days before he died. I try looking at photographs ( on everyone of them he is smiling) and I remember how sad and frightened he was while he was ill. Its seems impossible to get the bad thoughts out of my head. Everything…
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dadl lost his bravest battle
by tintin1970- 3 replies
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dad lost his battle on the 6th of may, in memory of him a poem I wrote for his funeral DEAR DAD SORRY DAD , I BROKE A PROMISE TO YOU , YOU BEGGED ME NOT TO CRY ,WHEN YOU SAID GOODBYE. AS HARD AS I TRY , THE TEARS STILL FLOW, IN MY HEART YOU WILL STAY ,I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO. THE DAY WE LOST YOU THE SUN SHON BRIGHT AND THE BIRDS SUNG IN THE TREES, THIS ANNOYED ME , IT WAS AS IF THEY DID NOT KNOW I WAS NOW THE FATHERLESS ONE. THAT CANCER DID NOT BEAT US , IT BROUGHT US CLOSER TOGETHER , IT UNITED US AS FATHER AND SON . YOU BEC…
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The loss of Mum!
by Sueoliver- 19 replies
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Hi everyone I always knew it would be hard to lose such a strong brave wonderful woman but gosh it is hard? I just wondered if anyone else re lived what they went through. I can't stop thinking about the awful things Mum had to go through and the horror of it all! When she was alive I dealt with it and supported her all the way but now I feel like I am having nightmares! There have been nights when I haven't slept at all! She was so brave and strong but all I can think about is the horror of it all! I know it will get easier and these thoughts will fade but at the moment it is awful! Did any one else feel like this? Love to everyone, Sue xxx
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Hello everyone Its my first post here. Hard to word my story but last week Tuesday I burried my lovely mother. I find it difficult to cope with the loss. She was fighting with pancreatic cancer for the last 9 months. Specialist nurses Jeni and Dianne were really very helpful for me and my mother in difficult times. But now I need help, I struggle a lot. No peace in my mind. I need some kind of support. I believe bereavement councelling might help. Is there any available support? Would it cost money? Please advise me. Thanks to all, Guram
