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Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 5:57 pm
by Judith16
Dear PW
Sending you love, light, prayers and hugs xxx

Judith

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 9:36 pm
by Linda G
Dear PW, thank you for sharing. It does certainly sound as if Hubby was there in spirit, keeping you strong! The sadness and the longing run very deep. Your last paragraph moved me to tears and I know exactly what you mean. I have no words to offer at the moment. I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and your son at this difficult time. Be kind to yourself and take care.
xxx
Linda G

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 11:04 pm
by sandraW
PW Glad it all went well, it sounds like it was a fitting tribute to PH. I told you you could do it, even though it would not have been easy, I felt it was the very last thing I could for my Trevor, give him a great send off. sending you love and strength sandrax xx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2016 3:40 pm
by Marmalade
Hi PW,

I'm not sure what is going on but I have done several posts recently which don't appear. I must have some sort of gremlin…. just want you to know that I am thinking of you always xx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2016 4:39 pm
by Dandygal76
Hey PW. Sounds like you had a fitting send off for hubby and yes, those weird things do make you wonder... especially as you have always said hubby has a good sense of humour. I hope that comforted you because I am certain he would want to give you a message he is okay if he could. You are going through some hard hard times right now but you know we are all here for you if you need us. Sending love to you and your son. x

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2016 7:05 pm
by Proud Wife
I so want to provide support to my friends on here who are still on the good side of the divide and post on each of their own threads but I feel so very low and negative and sad, I'm afraid I'd be no help at all so it's better I refrain at the moment. I think I'd just end up making you feel worse. After the amazing help I've had, I want to give back but I'm so sorry, I just feel as though I don't want to talk to anyone, I want to be left alone in my lonely painful bubble. Please, please, please be assured I am following your stories and willing you all on, your loved ones can be one of the lucky ones, never lose hope.

I've spent the day trying to find somewhere to live. The house that we live in has brought us nothing but bad luck. This is not a rash decision, hubby and I had been looking for months now but of course, bereavement and moving home are two of the most stressful things, especially when I need to drastically reduce our living costs. I haven't been able to work for the past 14 months due to my own ill health, it's just everything coming down like a ton of bricks and all I want is my other half to lean on. I think I can truthfully say today is the first day where I've realised he's not coming home. For the past couple of weeks we were able to keep going by busying ourselves in the funeral and making sure everything was perfect for hubby. Reality has dawned and it's the most awful feeling I ever, ever had.

I remember vividly reading Linda G's posts on the very same subject and sweetheart, I now know exactly how you feel.

To those of you special brave people on this journey, stay strong and keep fighting if you can, someone somehow has to get the better of this evil disease in memory of those that were just not able to.

Truly Proud but heartbroken Wife xx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2016 11:37 pm
by sandraW
Hi PW Don't worry about not feeling able yet to offer support, how can you be expected too, you have just lost your beloved husband, you just need to think about yourself and your son. I am sorry to hear you have to move house, as you say its not a good time but if it has to be done then it has to be done, regardless of whether its a good time or not.
I was used to doing things for myself as Trevor was away a lot, but he was always there as backup on the phone or when he came home, I found it very hard to accept that he wasn't just away again and would be back at the weekend. Please just take care of you, post when you need to, we are all thinking of you love sandrax xx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Sat Jul 02, 2016 7:40 am
by Dandygal76
PW, please don't beat yourself up... you have enough on your plate. The only thing you should be concerned about right now is nurturing yourself and your son. No-one is thinking or expecting otherwise. I am sorry you are having to move right now as well but you will come out the other side of this and hubby is right their with you in your heart. Sending you cyber hugs. x

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Sat Jul 02, 2016 7:48 am
by boa
PW
It's very good of you to want to help others. Just take time to yourself. Some of us here know exactly how you feel but we can also tell you that as time passes the feelings of sadness lessen. Post on your thread and let us know how you get on.
Catherine

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Sat Jul 02, 2016 10:32 am
by Wife&Mum
Dear PW,

You have given SO much support to others here, but it's clearly now time for you to put the needs of you and your son first.

Your forum family are here whenever you need us and you have our unconditional support. Post here whenever you want and we will try to help.

Thinking of you now and over the coming weeks, sending wishes of strength and comfort,

W&M xx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Sun Jul 03, 2016 6:42 pm
by Marmalade
Dear PW,

It's a ghastly ghastly time and nothing can take away the pain. We all know it or fear it. Even you saying how you feel in the above post helps because others have felt like it and they know they are not alone. People like me know it's coming and will not feel so at sea knowing that others have felt our pain. You are always helping us.

have you thought about talking to Macmillan's financial people who are incredibly helpful and they also know what you have been through. I will also sell the house and reduce costs after it is all over with Louis. It's too big a cost and like you I have not been working. However, I am not going to be pressured as losing someone close is enough stress for anyone. Truly, the Macmillan team are there for this sort of thing and there is nothing to lose just having a chat. They were brilliant at taking me through all the forms and claiming for things I never knew I could get (we have savings so thought we would get nothing).

Most of all, be kind to yourself and if you want to be alone and lick your open wounds then do, you are not crazy or weak or stupid, or letting anon down, you are overwhelmed with grief and only time can cure it. In the meantime we will keep posting for you and you will know we are still here and will wait for you. M xxx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Sun Jul 03, 2016 8:59 pm
by Dandygal76
xxx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2016 9:22 am
by Ant11
Hi PW

We know exactly how you feel and when ready, I am only at the end of email. xxxxx

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Wed Jul 06, 2016 10:47 pm
by Dandygal76
Hey lovely Proud Wife. I just wanted to send my love and tell you to take care of yourself and your son. You are never far from my thoughts. x

Re: Totally in awe of my wonderful Husband!

Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2016 8:25 pm
by Proud Wife
Hello my lovely forum family

It's taken me a while to come back on here although I never left! Have been busy looking at properties and coping with estate agents who will really stop at nothing to get you to view somewhere where there's not a snowballs chance that it will be suitable. Why do they waste their time and ours?!!

On Wednesday we brought hubby home which really freaked me out initially. I thought it would be comforting to have him back but I know I'm in denial so of course having him home makes everything real and I'm just not ready to cope with that yet or I suppose accept he's gone for good.

I seem to be torturing myself the whole time. I'm constantly looking at photos and yearning to see him in the flesh. I keep thinking about the last 8 days of his life - its really hard to explain but I feel like I need to make myself suffer because why should I have a normal life when he's been robbed of his. My son has picked up on this and feels I need counselling, he's right of course but I'm not quite ready.

Other than that, life carries on. Some people who I least expected, have been truly amazing and supportive but as well as being a Proud Wife, I am also a very very Proud Mum as my son has been just FANTASTIC. And that's an understatement! I never expected such support or wisdom or maturity to be honest when he's also mourning the loss of his dad.

It's lovely to see some new members posting here, I promise to join in the chat when I can but in the meantime I am following everyone's stories and wishing you all well. Normally you can't shut me up but at the moment, I just feel so lost, I'm not sure what I can say that would help. It will come back though as I know the raw, heartbreaking emotions that I'm currently feeling won't last forever. Well at least I hope they don't.

Love to each and everyone of you affected by this disease. xxx