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I went to talk yesterday - I say talk, but I feel so low at the moment I couldn't help but break down crying.


I went to see my Oncologist yesterday with the main focus being on the injection I had last Thursday which I didn't feel has worked to bring the pain under control as the pain is still there. Celiac Nerve Block.


Looking through my notes he could see that the injection had worked, in-so-much-as they severed the nerve in question, but unfortunately the pain I am now experiencing is all down to the cancer, which he thought would happen.


The cancer has apparently become active again in my liver which he feels is where the tumour is starting to spread more rapidly.


The treatment from here on in; is, more Chemo, but this time in tablet form, (Capecitabine) so I least I won't be sat in hospital most of the day. I will be having another scan within the next two weeks and I am now being treated for pain through the Trinity Hospice and they have started me off on a strict regime. I may have to take the DVT injections for the rest of my life, but that's no hardship considering what I've already been through.


It has upset me, no doubt about that, but I've go to get on with it and try to stay on this earth for as long as I can.


I'm now taking OxyConTin, OxyNorm, Pregabaline, Co-Amilofruse (ankles swollen with fluid)

and right at this minute - even though I take Omeprazole - my stomach feels very sore.


I will also need to have a blood transfusion Monday morning as my blood cell count is very low ( due to the tumour), which could take up to three hours, so I will take plenty of reading material with me.


I couldn't help but break down crying and I know my Oncol is upset for me, but he's not going to give up on me, so I'm not going to give up either.


One thing the Trinity nurse and doctor did say was not to give up on the injection, just because it hasn't stopped my pain within the usual time of 3 days, she said it might still stop it, but just take longer for me.


I've gone from taking no tablets at all.....or very little.....to taking 10 to 12 a day.


I just feel if I could combat the pain it would help me so much to carry on with life, but it's no quality of life when you're in constant pain. I shouldn't grumble, goodness when I think of dear sweet people on the forum going through much more than me, but I guess we are (what you would say, in the same boat with this disease)but then again we are also different, especially with pain, I'm such a softie I know I am.


I will be hopefully having a CT scan within 2 weeks, so that will show what is going on inside, I fear it may not be good news.


I do try to give myself a good talking to, but I don't feel as though I am listening, because I still keep getting down.


Linda x

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PCUK Nurse Jeni

Dear Linda,


So sorry to hear how things are for you right now.


I have heard of nerve blocks before which take a bit longer to take effect, so as they say, don't give up hope that they will not work. It may happen yet.


Sorry to hear that you have to have more chemo, but as you say, at least you can take it home with you and not have to be hooked up to drips again, etc...They are relatively well tolerated Capecitabine, although still chemo, so same rules apply to being vigilant with side effects, which I know you are anyhow.


The blood transfusion should make a huge difference to you in terms of energy levels and tiredness, if you are experiencing these (probably are if you are needing a transfusion). Depending on how many units you are having, they usually take 2 hours each, so if you are having 2 units (the least number usually given), then this would be 4 hours. Unless they give it faster, but I have not come across this before.


Hope it goes well, and you feel better after it. And don't worry about feeling down on here - you are entitled to. You are such a support to others, and you are so positive, its OK to have a day when you don't feel tiptop.


Take care,


Jeni.

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Hi Linda


I am also so sorry to hear this. Hopefully what Jeni says will happen and the nerve block will kick in and the blood transfusion give you a boost.


You and my Jonathan are treading similar paths at the moment. His last CT scan showed a small change from his previous including on his liver - this has cause him a lot of pain (also on oyxcontin 30mg x 2 day and oxynorm 20mg) but he is due to resume treatment tomorrow Gemcitabine and Capecitabine (GemCap) which we are hoping will stop it in it's tracks and deal with the symptoms. This is his oncologist's aim as she wasn't so worried about the small change itself (which was good for us to know).


Here's hoping that your scan doesn't reveal anything ominous AT ALL and you start to feel more comfortable soon.


I'll be looking out for your posts.


Take care


Cathy xx

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Linda


"Fatigue doth make cowards of us all!" and if you add constant pain to that it is a no wonder that you are on a bit of a downer!! It is such a shame that the injection seems not to be doing its work but as wiser counsel than mine have pointed out it may just be taking a little longer to kick in - let's hope that's the case.


You are so brave with all that you are having to endure but you know that we are all with you and rooting for you as well as delivering virtual love and hugs to comfort you. Only this morning I was remembering with my wife the times before I was diagnosed and had had any treatment when the only relief from pain I could get was to roll up on the floor!! I felt awful and could not envisage being pain free but mercifully am lucky enough to be just that right now and it does make such an enormous improvement to your general well-being if you are not in that constant battle.


Love and Peace


Mike x

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My goodness Linda, you have been through so much, give yourself a little slack! You are allowed to feel down now and again. You had high expectations from your recent procedure which may yet prove to be of benefit. We are all wiling for the thing to kick in!


Of course you will keep on fighting, you are a strong woman with a fab family behind you plus us raggle raggle lot ready to listen to you and support you whenever you feel the need.


Much love

Julia x

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These lesions on the liver seem to be a problem and it was because a small one of mine had escaped the effects of the Gemcitabine that my trial was terminated. Interesting to see the alternative chemo that is being tried to rein these in. Although mine is accompanied by a very small amount of fluid I'm having no pain or other symptoms from it at all. Had my usual chemo yesterday bloods all fine and as usual no side effects - lucky or what!


Off to Lanzarote this morning for our long weekend with friends who live there so I will try to forget everything and just enjoy the sun (hopefully)!!


Love and Peace


Mike

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Hi Mike


Yes, have a great holiday. So pleased you have so few side effects. My fella restarts treatment today and is feeling VERY apprehensive about side effects. Have an absolutely wonderful time.


Julia - raggle taggle indeed!! ;)


Cathy xxx

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PCUK Nurse Jeni

Hello to all the forum family.


It is with great sadness that Pancreatic Cancer UK have learned of the sad passing of Linda, who posted on here as LindaH.


Linda passed away peacefully last night.


I am so sorry to deliver this news at such a poignant time of the year, but I know that some of you were asking about Linda, and have been concerned about her.


We would like to extend our sincere condolences to Linda's family at this sad time.


Kind regards,


Jeni, Support Team.

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Linda and I were diagnosed on the same day and she was such a rock for me, especially in the early days. So sad that she has been taken so relatively quickly. In true Linda style, her illness did not stop her going to a Black Sabbath concert last week!


She will be missed here!


Steve

X

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I am so sorry to hear of this very sad news.


It only seems like yesterday Linda posted a link to her radio interview in Blackpool discussing her diagnosis of PC.


I remember Linda posting of her hopes and fears for the future, specifically around her wish to see her daughter graduate, get married and give Linda a grandchild. Linda felt so sad that this might not be. I am so very sad for Linda and her family that this in fact was not to be and pass my deepest condolences to her husband and daughter.


Cathy xxxx

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Slewis7313 wrote:

> Linda and I were diagnosed on the same day and she was such a rock for me,

> especially in the early days. So sad that she has been taken so relatively

> quickly. In true Linda style, her illness did not stop her going to a Black

> Sabbath concert last week!

>

> She will be missed here!

>

> Steve

> X



That does sound like Linda, but gosh to be at a concert one week and gone the next :(


Cathy, I remember listening to that radio interview, she was great. What a loss :(


xxx

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So sorry to hear this very sad news. Linda was an amazing lady and I'm glad I was fortunate enough to listen to her radio interview a few weeks ago. My heart goes out to her family who must be devastated, especially so at this time of year.


Love,

Hilary

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Hi,

Have only just caught up in this post, was wondering how Linda was.

Sending love and support to Linda's family, I know how hard this is especially at Christmas.


Linda was a wonderful support to so many on here, rest in peace Linda.


Bee xx

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i was thinking about Linda only yesterday, I am so sad to hear about this, hope her family are doing okay....I loved her positivity, god this disease is just VILE!!!! Hope Linda is in a much better place now watchimh over her family xxx

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