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hi


we were only told 3 months ago that my dad has p/c it had already spread to the liver and other parts we are all so angry with the gp because he has been going back and forth to the doctors for the last 1 year


we were told upto a year with chemo but he hadn't really started (he had 1 lot) when they said nothing else can be done then told he has 4-8 weeks left how can this be he was a very fit man going to the gym 3 times aweek to now sleeping most of the time , none of us can get our head around things.


many thanks for reading this


Pauline

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Dear Pauline


I'm so sorry and understand the terrible pain you are all going through now. It took months to get to the bottom of my mum's problems, she was backwards and forwards being treated from everything from IBS to depression. We couldn't get appointments, test results, nobody seemed to want to know. When they did diagnose they told us she had advanced pancreatic cancer and they did what they do with everybody with this disease who they can't operate on - started her on chemoptherapy for palliative care. No other options suggested by them at all, they just wrote her off basically. She stuck it out for a good while. But it robbed her of any quality time left in her her life and looking back we wish we had thought through it more carefully and spared her the additional agony, but at the time we couldn't think straight at all.


Your poor dad, how old is he? All I can say is to make sure that he is as pain free and comfortable as possible and get all the help and support you can.


It's awful to read about yet another person having to wait until it's pretty much too late before they do anything. You're in my thoughts. XX

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Hi Pauline and I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. Is he at least on adequate pain relief? If he needs further painkillers or more nursing care then you might need to engage some pester-power tactics with the NHS. If your Dad wants a second opinion then he's entitled to that too.


Other than the NHS, do ensure that you contact your local Macmillan branch. They offer support and services to anyone affected by cancer (not only cancer patients). I know that you're only thinking of your Dad right now but you need some support too - even if it's only a way to vent some of the anger, helplessness and hurt that you're feeling.


I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.


Nicki x

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Hi Pauline,


I'm so sorry to hear about your dad! I'm also new to this, my mom was diagnosed 7 weeks ago with advanced p/c thats spread to liver and possibly lungs, after months of dead ends and fighting for appointments.


She has her first appointment this week to discuss treatment so unfortunately i can't really offer you any advice.

But i wanted to let you know that I can understand a bit what your going through and how angry/baffled/useless you feel!

Its like being stuck in a bad dream!


Please let us know how its going with your dad (and you!).


Kind Regards

Lisa x

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Hi Pauline


So very sorry to hear about your Dad. It seems pancreatic cancer is so hard to diagnose and often, there are not many treatments which can be offered.


I sincerely hope your Dad is kept comfortable and pain free. Wishing you the strength to cope with this awful situation.


Sending you my thoughts and best wishes.


Ellie

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hi thank you all so much for your replies it really means a lot


my dad is 62 years old and untill 7 weeks ago was a very fit and able man the change in him is staggering to say the least. he is nearly pain free which is good news i saw him friday then again today and looks like he is taking a turn for the worst .

they have got support which is good but we all just feel so useless they is nothing we can do to help him we don't know what to say him or mum


thank you all again it has really helped knowing other people have gone or going through the same thing


lisa i do wish your mum and the rest of the family all the luck in the world XX


kind regards


pauline XX

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Hi Pauline,


62, your dad is no age at all bless him. Same with my mum - a 68 year old previously fit and well non smoker, non drinker, healthy lifestyle when she was diagnosed. It's all happening so quickly for you though, I am shocked that you have been give a diagnosis of 2-3 months so quickly, that seems to be unusual but them I guess i am getting to the stage where I am not surprised by very much with pancreatic cancer. It is reassuring that he is not in any pain. You could do with some answers and explanations though, it would help you all then you could start to help each other - it sounds like you are all in shock at the moment.


thinking of you XX

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Hi Pauline


As I'm in the same position as your Mum, I can confidently say that you're doing exactly the right thing by just being there for her and your Dad. There's no need to say anything profound. Don't underestimate the strength that you will give them both - your support is the one thing you can give in this situation.


Take care


Nicki

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hi nicki


thank you so much for your reply


i talk to mum and dad at least once a day as i live a fair way from them(1.30 drive) it's hard to get there all the time but i do get there at least 3 times a week which i have found really hard the 2 weeks because he has gone down hill so fast and it is very upsetting there is always a few tears but also a lot of laughter talking about things that my children and all the other grandchildren have said and done over the years.we all know now that all of the grandchilrden will not see thier grandad again as it to upstting for everybody,but they know how much they are loved by him and he know's how much he is loved by them


sorry i keep going on but i'm finding this helps writing everything down it helps me think stright so sorry if i am rambling on.


love pauline X

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Hi Pauline


Don't worry about rambling - I can talk (or type) for England! It does help to get it all out, even if it's repetitive and we've all been there.


"Being there" for someone doesn't necessarily involve physical presence - our oldest daughter has two (part time) jobs and we the youngest lives about an hour's drive away, so we don't always see them as much as we would like. However, I know that if we really needed them I would only have to phone. I speak to them frequently on the phone between visits and, in all honesty, sometimes that's easier because it's not quite so intense. That probably doesn't make any sense, so let me give you an example:


Yesterday, Ted had chemo and afterwards (as he always does) was coughing a lot. Either of our daughters would have worried about every single cough if they'd been there but I was able to talk to them calmly on the phone and let them know he was ok. I know he's ok and that it's just a side effect of the chemo but because they aren't always there when he's had chemo, they wouldn't know that. Their worry would trouble me (because they would ask if I was absolutely sure he was ok all the time and I'd begin to doubt myself) and just make it all a little bit more fraught.


We have two grandchildren too. Our daughter is worried they may forget their grandad, so she's making a "grandad book" with copies of pictures from happier times and little stories reminiscing about incidents such as the time Ted was holding our grandaughter over the pond to feed the fish and nearly dropped her - in his panic not to drop our grandaughter, he waded into the pond and got sopping wet! It's not necessarily the big things - little things like that really bring memories to life.


I'm sorry that your Dad is deteriorating so rapidly and that you're finding it so distressing. It's a huge trauma to have to come to terms with in such a short time. Tears are part of the process and we all fall apart sometimes but it's great that you have a lot of laughter too. That's really important!


Love

Nicki x

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hi all


just a quick update....


my dad went into hospital last night because of the amount of pain he is in, don't know yet what they are going to do but we are hoping he will be allowed to come home tomorrow or monday but we really don't know mum thinks he has had enough,

what are we going todo without him in our lives it's unthinkable to say the least.


anyway i do hope all of you are well and keep your chin up


lots of love

pauline

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Hi Pauline and I'm sorry to hear your Dad is in so much pain. Let's hope they get it under control and that he can come home in the next few days. I can't bear thinking about the future without my hubby either and, although it's difficult, I try to just take one day at a time.


Do let us know how your Dad is getting on and remember that we're here for you. Take care.


My thoughts are with you and your family.


Love


Nicki x

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hi all


just a update...... my dad was allowed home from hospital last night but then took a turn for the worst last night. he is still holding he's own just about the district nurse has been really good she has been out twice today to help mum with him. we have been told that things are not looking good and to see him as quick as we can. i'm going tomorrow and one of my sisters and my brother is there now my sister will be there with my mum and dad untill the very end.


i want to thank all of you for your support you have given me over the last couple of months (even though i only joined last week i have been looking )


i will keep you all updated


love pauline XX

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Oh Pauline, I'm so very sorry to hear your news and my thoughts are with you and your family. Do keep us in the loop and don't forget that you always have a friendly ear here.


Love


Nicki xx

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hi all


just an update my wounderfull dad passed away today at 9.00 am all 4 of he's children and his beautyful wife our mum was with him at the end.


i am so angry we were left on own from 5 am untill he died no doctors no nurses not anyone,not even macmillan nurses

my dad was in so much pain he was very ill on monday my mum called the macmillan nurse and was told thst she would be out as arranged on tuesday(which she didn't keep) if she had then someone who knew what they were doing would have been with him.


the only thing that came out of this is he knew the ones with him were the ones who loved him the most are the ones who were with him at the end i'm greatfull for the time i spent with him


love to all of you that are going through this cancer


my best wishes


pauline


p.s i will keep writing if thats ok


xxxxxx

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Dear Pauline


So sorry to hear that your dearly loved dad has passed away.


It will have meant everything to your dad that you were all there with him, don't underestimate what you have all done there - I think it's wonderful that you managed as you did, I know it has been very hard and very sudden for you and although you should have had medical support at the end it sounds like you all did everything that could be done for your dad on your own.


I'm sure that you will all support each other but please keep telling us how you are. My mum passed away about 6 weeks ago and although we are coming to terms quite well I still find it very helpful to come here and talk to people. I hope your mum will be ok. We have spent a lot of time with my dad since mum died, he comes to our house most nights for meals etc and sometimes he cooks for us. We are with him sorting everything out and it seems to help. He was exhausted from nearly a year of constant terrible worry and anxiety for my mum and although he misses her terribly he did feel relieved that the suffering was over.


Pauline you are in our thoughts, XX

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Pauline


I'm so sorry to hear that your Dad has passed. As Chinup says, it would have meant the world to him that you were all around him and it's obviously (and quite rightly) a huge comfort to you too.


Your wonderful Mum will need lots of support and I know that you'll all lean on each other but if you need a friendly shoulder don't forget that we're here. In any event, please do keep writing and let us know how you and the family are.


My thoughts and prayers are with you


Love


Nicki xx

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Dear Pauline,


I'm so sorry to hear about your dad! I can't add much after Nicki and chinup but I wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you and your family!

I can imagine how angry you feel and I think its a real pity that your dad was in pain. The only small consolation is that the pain is over for him now and he doesn't have to suffer anymore.

I'm very glad you all managed to get there and were with your dad at the end, like the others said I’m sure that meant everything to him!

Its unbelievable how quickly and viciously this cancer takes people!

My mom will be starting her first lot of chemo next week all being well, I will write a full update later.


Please keep us upto date with how you are all doing.

Wishing you lots of strength!

Love Lisa x

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thank you all so much for all your kind words over the last 3 1/2 months.


chinup,nicki and lisa and everyone who has read this my thoughts are with you all i pray that everyone who is going through this horrible cancer that you have the strength to cope with what life throws at you in the next weeks,months,years.


lisa i do hope that everything works out for your mum and chemo works for her we have to have good news soon


may god bless you all


lots of love


pauline XXXXX

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Pauline, I am so sorry you have lost your Dad. He will be free from all pain now. What a blessing his family was with him and I am sure that would have been all he wanted at the time.

I send you gentle hugs and take care

Robyn x

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  • 8 months later...

Hi Pauline...

I am new to this site, came across it after my dad was diagnosed with unoperable pancreatic cancer just under 3 weeks ago and my story is similiar to yours, my dad is 62, and was fit and healthy, working full time and a devoted husband to my wonderful mum and an awesome dad to myself brother and sister. He has his first chemo session on tuesday, i am praying for a miracle, he is my best friend and i am not ready to let him leave us yet, i know i need to be realistic but this whole cancer word scares the crap out of me.

I was heartbroken to read your dad passed away, how is your mum? How did you get through it? I am sorry if i am asking to many questions but i simply am scared.


Lots of love


Karen

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  • 1 month later...

Hi Karen,


I am so sory to hear about your dad and so sorry it has taken so long to reply to you..... how are things ? how is the chemo going ?


things are still very hard and it's not long now untill it's been a year since his passing which is going to be very very hard but i know as a


family we will do it. it has taken so long for this all to sink in and still feels like a bad dream i have become a completely different person


over the last year and it has made me relise what i want and need to do and that life is just too short.


the only thing I would say is spend as much time as possible as a family say the things you want to say ( thats the one thing i regret not


saying the things i wanted to )


i am praying for a miracle for you ...... as well please let me know how things are and i promise to look everyday


the best thing i done was to join this site the people are just angles they know what to say all the time lift you up when your down and


there to give the support you need and when needed without this site my mind would have been shot to pieces


i'm not very good at this but i do hope in some way it has helped you


lots of love to you mum dad and brother


thinking and prying for you all


Pauline XX

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Hi Pauline and it's good to hear from you again. I'm glad that you're finding a way through the grief. All I can say is that it does become less raw eventually but it's great to see a positivity about you - just knowing that you'll get through the tremendously difficult anniversary period is so very positive.


I'm glad that the people on the site helped you and I know that you've supported others in turn. Don't forget we're always here for the bad (and good!) days and we'll always be pleased to hear from you.


Karen,


Pauline's reply reminds me I've been very remiss - I'd intended to reply to your message but forgot! We'd love to hear how your dad is doing and we'd all be pleased to answer any questions you might have or give you whatever support we can. Sometimes just knowing you're not alone and that there's someone here who will understand if you want to vent is so important, so please post away.


Love


Nicki

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Hi Pauline,


So sorry to hear about your dad. There's no happy end to pc and it's so unfair that some of us have such limited time with our loved ones. Glad you were all able to be with your dad when he passed away.


Really hope you have all the support you need to grieve and recover.


Thoughts are with you.


CFF x

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