I found out yesterday my dad who I havent seen for 5 years has pancreatic cancer. (We do speak sometimes on the phone)
He is 60 and a diabetic but was also an alcoholic for many years.
He has tests in 3 weeks to see how far advanced it is, he has been losing weight for over 2 years, does that mean he's had it for 2 years? Why does he have to wait for more tests, does that mean they arent too worried?
My mum isnt very sympathetic as he made her life hell and she still has nightmares 35 years on. She says why should I bother as he's never bothered about me, but it feels like part of me is dying and he's still my dad.
Sorry I am rambling but dont really have anyone to talk to about it
Thanks
Julie
