My wonderful husband

[Nicmads]

On October 12th my amazing husband went into hospital with suspected gallstones. He has always been fit and healthy and just 2 weeks before going into hospital we were enjoying an amazing holiday in the Dominican Republic. 
he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer within 12 hours of going to hospital. We were so shocked, our heats were broken. We couldn’t believe that this was happening, as I’m sure everyone else who is dealing with PC feels.

2 weeks later we were told that it wasn’t good news, the cancer was to far gone. There was a possibility of chemo but that would depend on a biopsy result. If he could have chemo our prognosis was 6-12months, if not 6-8weeks. Our world was shattered but he was always saying he was going to give it everything he had! We made plans, we had tough conversations and we were brutally honest with each other. 
A week later, the biopsy results were back and there was nothing to be done. We had to go home and enjoy our time together. 
We came home on the Friday and sadly on the Tuesday morning my darling husband passed away, he was 55. 
 

I don’t know how I will ever get over losing him. I miss him everyday. We had so much planned in our lives and I feel robbed. People say it gets easier but I just can’t see how. He was my everything and I’m so lost without him